when it comes to work;
“MYOB” – mind your own business.
this is now what I’m always doing.
I know who I can and I will trust and who I don’t.
but whatever it is,
the lesser the female,
the better the environment is – less bitches!
the month has finally ended.
and I can’t wait to spend my weekends with my love.
it’s [...]

it’s 10.08pm.
gotten off the cab at 9.45pm.
cab fare, $18.
compensation?
nothing.
it’s really getting ridiculous,
but all I need is to just bare with it!
screw it!
I hate my job,
but I can’t resist the temptation of money coming in.
.materialistic.
humans nature are.
it’s 10more hours to work again.
life’s starting all over again from 1.
welcome

when it starts to get a little emotional in the night.

It’s been awhile since I had time to myself – which means surfing the net.
And I did my rounds on Fridae.
Today I had a weird search,
I clicked “Female aging 40 – 50″.
Now we see a clearer picture of older lesbians.
Realized that being lesbian,
it’s not about the boobs and the pus.
But I guess is the understanding [...]

only to realise,
it’s already 12.48am,
and not forgetting
i need some time alone to sort out those uncertain issues.
screw it.
I guess I roughly know what I want,
but didn’t let it out too much.
because I don’t want people to see who I am.
Only she knows it.
Nap time,
while it’s another day of work at war.
It’s not easy being pretentious.
Back [...]

life’s been so far so bad.
been busy checking jobs,
sending mails like spam.
picking up calls like call-centre.
alright,
not that terrible.
but more or less,
I’ve been looking for a switch in environment.
and well,
trying hard to be as real as possible.
after all,
days left are countable! lol.
on the way home,
i was thinking how nice if we can remove those superficial faggots [...]

Today I woke up thinking weird;
1. I wanted to study.
2. I wanted to quit asap!
3. I realised time is too little, and decisions were too harsh.
4. I went back to bed.
Rather weird,
but I guess this is what we call;
indecisive.
Sent resume to couple of companies,
hoping a few gets back to me asap!
At least I’ll be able [...]

and a year has almost come to an end.
too much has happened.
heart felts within,
i’m not ready to leave that place.
even if it’s a place of
“DOG EAT DOG”!!!

it’s getting tiring.
complain no more.
just keep living it a day.
i guess the war will soon come to an end.
we’ll finally meet at a point,
where we are still lost.
we are not too old,
not too young,
but very lost.
a zig-zag road,
i guess we’ll never know where it’ll take us to.
just breathe,
and awaits for a new day.
i’m getting uberly [...]