it never feels better than going for a holiday.
spending really quality time.
i guess you hope I’ve done these little things before all these has started isn’t it?
some things are unexplainable.
just to let you know that,
at least I did something like this before,
even we have it ended or not.
whatever decision you have made,
whatever decision I have [...]

this.is.a.long.entry

last night,
I walked out of this illusion that I drew myself.
this circle so huge,
that I was trapped inside for quite awhile.
Pacing up and down,
the exit never seem too near.
Running crazily looking for the exit.
And this circle so huge,
so huge,
so dark,
so afraid,
so lost,
so ambiguous.
Went around crazily,
hitting walls,
screwing them,
shouting like never before.
Last night,
I walked out of [...]

they said it was revenge,
they said I was childish.
1st point – NO.
2nd point- Maybe, I can’t deny that.
Childish to make things patch back so easily.
Revenge is not the word to use,
because it was INTENTIONAL.
and it wasn’t that I did it on purpose.
Whoever that wrote that freaking comment,
don’t worry.
I’m taking it slow and easy.
For I fucking [...]

even he got you a present.
i guess i’m just too lousy to be called your one this time.
what happened?
we all know within.
i dare not log in to your blog.
cos i’m in denial now.
i dare not do anything.
i dare not hope for anything this time.
this time it’s me that called it off.
it took me alot of [...]

spending whole day at work is really tedious.
not because I’ve got no sales.
but to fight emotionally and mentally at work is tiring.
yes yes,
everywhere has politics!
but how can there be so MUCH politics!
screw them all!
let’s leave alone work.
—
just a short note to my fellow buddies;
thank you guys for spending my belated birthday with me.
don’t worry if [...]

For a very long time,
I finally made my own day by doing window shopping,
visiting book stores,
visiting music stores.
to find back those emotions I had for all these before.
Shopping alone is not miserable.
I found pleasure,
I found excitement.
I realized I’ve overcome loneliness.
Anyway,
I’ve seen many ugly scenes when I was out yesterday.
And I’ve sense many happiness around..
Family, lovers, [...]

“Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. [...]

Within the heart and soul.
Speechless but emotionally felt.
You complete the blank space that I lost

complicated emotions.
i hope i can fix them up for today.
i’m 22.
welcome 22.
goodbye 21.
screw 21!
I’ll have a better on a 22!
because I’ve got a bunch of really nice companions!
and my bunch of best friends…
I need to find distractions.
Holding back not to fall into the hole again.
I don’t wanna cry all over again.
you – me – impossible.
a [...]

it’s another year again.
this time,
a very simple one.
mahjong for the countdown,
and ktv for the night.
simple one…
with happy people around me.
really bless with my new-found friends,
and my best friends around me!!!
and not leaving out,
my best friend made a little surprise for me!
A board and a card!
Photos will be up SOON!