and the night,
we ended crying into each other’s arm.
I know the tears can hold on no more.
I know how much I need to speak someone.
I know we promised to share everything.
but I failed..
You knew it through my eyes,
that I was keeping my thoughts from you.
I’m sorry.
I really didn’t know how should I put it to [...]

photo-blogging

weee! that was the Jap Buffet we had on friday.
The stupid thing was I didn’t want my baby to get angry.
So I took a cab down to catch the buffet.
Last order was 9.30pm.
And I reached at 9pm.
So fuck, very fuck.
We or… no. I, had to order everything I want to eat for that 1 hour [...]

It was a tough day ahead,
fighting emotions with my love.
scary!
hopefully the day will end smoothly.
I woke up early and sent her to school.
Happened that my mum’s somewhere near me.
so I went to meet mum for breakfast and we did some window shopping.
Wanted to get pants, but it was SO HUGE.
damnit!
My baby met up with us [...]

it was really a struggle to do things that I haven’t been touching,
for like years.
But I understand how people judge me from the back,
how people can pierce words straight through.
After all the lessons I learnt before,
I start to learn to accept critics,
behind and in front of me.
I think acceptance that one needs to learn is [...]

the mind’s dead.
i’m all stressed-up.
exams,
work,
future,
money,
everything.
i think that’s the difficult of every phase of life.
that’s the growing adult life.
fuck,
now i can never turn back time.
i’ve decided to withdraw my piano exams,
i’ve decided to take a ride on my new job for a year.
i’ve decided to continue my studies after i’ve stablise my job.
i’ve decided to start [...]

Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you [...]

some people are really weird.
they say they need 3 years to hibernate.
and they wrote 30000 things about how tired they are.
VERY VERY WEIRD.
ok, that person would be my love.
Anyway,
I stared into the com the whole day,
and my eyes are really really tired.
I was talking to Mer on MSN about lesbians and gays.
And we really hate [...]

and my mind is filled with the piano exams.
sometimes I get distracted,
but end of the day,
the fear never goes away.
7th Sept.
I know it’s just gonna be shit.
My withdrawal sympton is here.
fuck!
anyway,
i think i’ve got another new fetish.
Viewing lesbian – being LESBIAN.
like say,
Dyke, how the hell the dress and learn to be a man.
Femme, how the [...]

weekends

then,
we spent our National Day at the New Stadium with MANY MANY PEOPLE.
thanks to my mum,
she gave us 2 tickets for us
just to catch that spectacular view of the new stadium
and definitely the fireworks
which seems to be never ending.
probie because of the 7% GST.
haha!
ok not very funny.
but it was hella alot of people.
When we were [...]

right,
4 days of break and it never feels enough.
in fact i’ve got to go back office 2 days and had a meeting at a wee hours.
and neglecting my precious at home.
I felt guilty for those actions.
and I’m gonna make it all up for her.
I bought her a phone as her anniversary gift.
the thing that makes [...]