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is it me? or is it something else? maybe it’s…

is it me? or is it something else?
maybe it’s just me.
so what if i’m sick?
it doesn’t matter.
i’ll just die here.
sometimes i just need a little concern,
but it just simply leads up to another PMS or arguement.
tolerance in need
i’m feeling very weak….
i felt so sour in my throat,
puke 3 times,
who cares?
i feel like i’m in a [...]

well, had a packed day yesterday. interview, foll…

well, had a packed day yesterday.
interview, followed by working, followed by dinner, and movie blah blah. pretty much all these are sorta the essentials for daily life? what bullshit am i talkin about. lol
in any case, i had a few companions at work yesterday – diana and baby.
after all it’s great singapore sales. i’m [...]

maybe some of my restrictions are plain naggin…

maybe some of my restrictions are plain nagging.
it hurts to feel this way.
maybe it’s just kamar.
or maybe i’m just useless.
it falls out within my control.
i’m still angry over myself.
too much time and space to allow me to think,
and it doesn’t gets me anywhere.
off to work and interview,
i hope it occupies my mind.
today will be a [...]

there are many things running in my head. i c…

there are many things running in my head.
i can’t stop them,
it just keeps spinning.
WTF! haiya,
i’m damn depressed.
fuck this shit

i feel like a dirt shit now. debts are pilling …

i feel like a dirt shit now. debts are pilling up, who could understand this feeling? it must be kamar. been spending too luxuriously lately, till i didn’t expect to end up in this state. lots of thoughts are running through my mind.
it must be boredom that’s causing such effect. this seems to be some [...]

I had the most awful nightmare in my entire lif…

I had the most awful nightmare in my entire life. I’ve never felt this way, to taste how literally death is. especially when you had those kinda dream, when it comes to manslaughter. awwfull! to think of it, really gives me cold sweat.
I felt so lethargic after that awful nightmare. I could feel the strong [...]

i halt a moment for all my doings, and thought …

i halt a moment for all my doings,and thought back.
was i thinking too much?was my mind playing tricks with me?trying to be in self-denial,i dare not think of it.
but would avoiding solve the situation works?
i know it wouldn’t.
i don’t wanna jump into conclusions,i don’t wanna hurt anyone.
but if it still persist,then don’t try [...]

maybe i should just be nicer. but why they seem…

maybe i should just be nicer. but why they seems to push me around at home? – i seriously don’t get it. -
seems like my mates are rotting like i do! haha.. no worries, add me into your khaki shake-legging list.
fuck! i need to find a job. i’ve spend overly by TOOO much! i’m [...]

when boredom rules me; I stared in the …

when boredom rules me;
I stared in the air with empty thoughts, And all that caught my vision, Was those aimless strangers that strolled through time. Had they played any role in my life like those empty thoughts?
I wonder.
Maybe I’m just like everyone of anyone.
I’m nobody.